Fear

I am so scared and can’t tell anyone. The ones who told me I should write this book now say I shouldn’t have done it. I can’t talk to anyone about my fears or my hopes. I’m afraid people will look at me differently when they know the things I’ve done. Will I see pity or shame on their faces? Will this dumb thing help anyone at all or just take away all the people I love. It is still in distribution right now and I still don’t have a release date yet, but it is looming ever so close and I’m scared and alone with my fears. I wish Tony were here. He would at least let me talk about it then he would say, ” oh mom, just get over it. What’s done is done. Now we just live with the fallout.” But at least he would let me express my fears and talk it out. I miss him.