Bob

A good example of what a man should be left this world yesterday. He is home. A place where I have longed to be for so long. Bob was a man who walked with God in heart and always had a smile on his face. Cancer could not even bring this man down. As of October I’ve been told he was told he was cancer free only to be taken down just a few months later by covid. His wife is just as wonderful as him and my heart goes out to her. I know the anger and pain she is feeling right now and the saddest thing is she wasn’t even allowed to be with him as he passed from this life into his better life. I can not imagine not being able to hold Tony’s hand as he left this world. I felt Tony’s last heartbeat and saw him take his last breath and I was there and he knew he was not alone. Bob was not alone, He had God, but for Lisa, life would have been a little easier for her if she had been able to say her goodbyes. She will feel like he was alone and she will always be angry at not being able to be there even though it was not in her control. She knows that he was not alone but she will still not get over not being there herself. I hurt for her. She will be loved and she will be ok though, just as I am loved and ok. She lost her best friend, her husband, her soul mate. I ache for her. Bob you will be missed by all the thousands of lives you touched, at home and on the mission fields. Everyone will remember you.

My book

So my book will finally go into distribution next week and then after that they will give me a release date. It has taken so long but it will finally be done soon. “God, please let it be the right thing to have done.”

Lottery

Yesterday, a customer and I were talking as he bought a lottery ticket while waiting for his wife and he told me the PowerBall was 550 million. I haven’t played in a long time but I told him if I had known, I would have bought a ticket. He asked me what I would do if I won that much money. I said the first thing that popped into my head, “GIVE IT AWAY”… lol. And I would, to a single mom or dad who never gets a break, I’d pay the rent and electric so she could get caught up. To a homeless vet or homeless someone who got there not because of drugs or alcohol, but because they had no control over their fate for a time. I would help them get their control back and get on the right path. Sometimes it just takes a little helping hand. Then after more thought later that night, it hit me. Mom and I had talked about hitting the lottery and building a refuge for abused children. Thats what I would do but I’d take it a step farther. I would take in the adults who could not shake their programming, such as being told by your dad so many times that you could never make it alone. Somehow we have to reprogram ourselves to believe that we can do it and that God will always be there to see us to the end. I would not drum God into people, believe me, I know that some people will tuck their tails and run the other way. Tony did that. I had to be careful when talking to Tony about God, but he always knew and finally one day he pointed to my praying hands statue when I was feeling low one day and said , mom, why do you have that? You believe, just pray. I couldn’t believe that I had heard that coming out of his mouth. My heart sang hallelujah..lol… anyway, I bought a ticket today because no one won yesterday. Here’s praying for a refuge!